2019 in a nutshell

Assalamualaikum

2019 will end in a few days I guess. So, can I just summarise my 2019. Can I? :p

So manyyyyy things happened in 2019.
family day, kakak graduate (maybe another entry? :p), Bina Insan Guru (BIG), Praktikum phase 1,  trip blup blup blup, trip ke Pahang, KOT,
and manyyyy more. heeee

ni time family day. sebenarnya dah buat dah entry untuk family day, tapi, tiba-tiba gambar semua hilang. terus takde mood nak post. huhu. Ada je dalam draft. tunggu jap. nanti aku post :""""")

Ni pulak, time BIG. Ni pun ada entry. tapi sebab gambar tak dapat lagi, malas terus. HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

Yang ni time praktikum

SBE 3

Ni time trip ke PD-Melaka. boleh tengok video kat sini --> Blup blup blup trip 1

Ni time kakak grad. yang ni aku janji nanti aku buat entry!! okiee??

aaaaaaa I MISS THIS GIRL!!!

 

AND MANY MORE MEMORIES!!!

My badminton girls

birthday celine

KOT 2019!!

last dinner with ma beloved housemates in 2019

hantar budak kecik gi belajar

haaa. pastu, alhamdulillah tahun ni, tok jah, tok abah, pak long, mak long, mak ni dengan angah dapat rezeki buat umrah. hehehe

time gi tengok frozen 2

raya!!

masa kumpul ramai-ramai kat rumah miss. ehek

masa ni gi tengok anime tu. tak ingat laa tajuk dia. hahahaha

time jamuan raya ipba. kecoh gila sebab masing-masing dah lama tak jumpa sebab praktikum

CNY!!

Ni time kena gi lawatan kat mana ntah. tak ingatt. ehek

AHHHHH TAPIII BANYAK LAGIIIII. NANTI PENUH NGAN GAMBARRR JEE!! HAHA

and, I happy sikit this year sebab my pointer naik. huhu. as a person yang tak pernah suka English. IT WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD TO LEARN. sebab tak minat. so, I rasa susah. :(

Masa awal-awal sem dulu, I always put my expectations for me a bit higher. Then, dapat result macam tu. kecewa terus. :'''( as years go by, I always put the expectations lower than it should be. so, target I memang akan selalu rendah. so, bila dapat result tinggi sikit pun I macam dah bangga dengan diri sendiri walaupun 3.5 je. huhuhu. so, bila tiba-tiba sem 5 ni dapat 3.75, I rasa macam bangga. because... you never know how struggle I am dengan practicum. sumpah I tak suka practicum. for many reasons.... and I DID IT. I SURVIVED. tu yang I rasa macam bangga. sumpahhh sebak, nak nangis time check result tuuu. sebab I ingat I dapat C untuk praktikum. huhu

and this year,  nenek, tok jah and tok abah tak berapa nak sihat. so, can you spare some of your time to pray for their health? May Allah bless them with the bestest health and endless rezq. aamiin. heeee tenkiuuu.

For me, 2019 was a hell of ride and i'm not kidding. sumpah. 

So much more tears compared to the other years.

So much more pain to hold.

So much more things to lose.

So much more things happened.

So much more risks to take, etc
So many times people broke my heart,
So many conflicts happened between me and my friends, huhu
and etc

hm.

But, looking on a bright side, I guess, those are the things that help to shape me to who am I today? yes? No? hee

I can say that I am getting stronger to face many more challenges, be more understanding of people's life, be more respectful and be more apa tuuuuu.. terima? I jadi lagi senang nak terima apa-apa yang jadi, no matter how worst is it. ehehehe

Sooooooooooo........
For those who stay, Thank you.
For those who are there from the very beginning until now, thank you.
For my backbones, thank you.
For you, thank you.
For those who are leaving me, thank you. why? because you are also one of the people yang pernah buat I happy? heh
Thank you for every single littlest things that you had done for me or to me.
And, sorry for every single littlest things that I have ever did to you. Sorryyyy okie? kosong-kosong boleh? hehehe

for 2020, actually, I don't really have that "azam tahun baru" thingy. because, all this while, I thought that everything will fall into its place kan? so, I just nak follow the flow je. but, I hope that this new year will bring happiness to everyone, especially people around me. May Allah protect them with HIS rahman and rahim, may Allah bless them with the bestest health and lengthen their age. May Allah takes imah first before DIA ambil orang-orang yang imah sayang. aamiin.

heee. so, let us open a new book and be a better us? boleh? heeee. 

 

Nah peace untuk mengakhiri 2019 anda. :p

Thank you for reading this entry!

Pace of Life

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Nak rant sikit boleh?

Kadang2 kan, kita tengok orang ni, mudahhh je hidup dia. Macam tak de masalah. Bila tengok sebelah pulak, orang tu macam sentiasa hidup dengan masalah.

        As we grow older, we can see many of our friends are achieving their dreams. While, we are here struggling macam apa. Tapi, takat tu je la. Macam aku, ada kawan aku dah habis degree, ada yang dah habis diploma, dah kahwin, dah tunang, ada yang dah nak bersalin pun ada! Aku? Kat sini laa. Tersengguk-sengguk nak habiskan degree ni. Jeles? Selalu. Selalu rasa, "bila laa aku nak macam depa ni."

        But, one thing yang aku pegang. We are all human. We move with our own pace. We might start at the same time, but we won't reach the destination in the same time. Pace kita berbeza and pace tu adalah hak Allah. Allah yang gerakkan kita. Kawan kau mungkin kahwin umur 20, while, engkau still terkial-kial hafal nama lecturer nak tulis kat front page assignment. Kawan kau mungkin dah habis degree umur 23, kau? Tersengguk-sengguk duk repeat paper diploma kat universiti tu. Sedih? Mesti. Jeles? Harus. Tapi kita ni siapa? Yang ni yang kita kena ingat. Ingat yang takdir kita (read:jalan hidup) tak sama. Allah dah susun cantik2 untuk kita. Tinggal percaya tk percaya je. Yakin tak yakin je dengan Allah. What if kalau kau kahwin saing2 umur kawan kau, and you cannot do the responsibility properly? What if kau habis degree umur 23 jugak tapi tu yang menjadi asbab kau ke neraka sebab riak? Think.

I still remember one of atok's punya pesan.

"duduklahh dalam takdir tu sampai DIA bawak ke takdir yang lain."

        Maksudnya, in whatever situation that you are in, enjoy it.. live it. Hiduplahh. Selagi Allah tak bawa kau ke takdir yang lain, duduklahh kau kat situ. Hiduplah kau kat situ. That is why acceptance is very important. Memang orang selalu cakap. "Be positive. Fikir yang positive. Everything will be okay." But, what if kalau kau dah positif tapi kau tak boleh terima? Is it making any changes? no! Sebab tu, in whatever situation that you are in, no matter how hard the situation is, terima. Terima apa yang tuhan nak bagi. Terima apa yang tuhan nak kau belajar. Once kau dah terima, everything will be easier for you. In shaa Allah dipermudahkan sebab kita redha dengan jalan hidup kita yang DIA dah tetapkan. Oki?

        Ingat, we move in our own pace. Some of us might be slower that the other and vice versa. But, one thing for sure, we will reach the destination. If Allah wills.

Thank you for reading this entry!

Practicum 1 - Practicum - mates

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Alright. Last one! hehe. This time I wanna rant about these 3 girls. my practicum-mates, crying-mates, makan-mates, and many more! Btw, this post might be cringe. so, read at your own risk. 😜😝

Haa senyum laa dulu. satgi nangis tak tauu ehhh. 😜

We are all having tough times during our first 2-3 weeks. We were soooo frustrated, crying our heart out, sobbing, serabut and many more. But, guess what? We finished our practicum 1 already girls!!!!! how time flies

Our first day!💃🏻

Our last day 😢

Remember my first instastory on our first day of school? I asked all of you to promise to take care of each other right? and I can say that all of us did a great job! 🤪🤪

Remember our first day when we were all soo nervous as we don't know what to expect with this school? remember the pak guard when we tried to search for the parking spot? "Yang pagar tulis penceroboh akan didakwa tu ke pak cik?" I swear we laughed like orang gila sebab benda tu je. hahahaha.

We are all not ready for our practicum phase 1 as all of us were still blur and did not know what to expect. Lagi-lagi bila lecturer sendiri pun tak de time tu. I still remember how blur we are and ntah. Semua macam tak de mood at first sebab semua tak ready. We were not prepared to face this practicum thingy, kan? When the practicum unit said that they wanna change us to a new school, we were like "okay. maybe this school will be better?". and suddenly Puan Kasma said "okay, no need to change school." and I macam, "Wth. I have already prepared mentally and physically nak keluar dari sekolah ni." hahahahaha

our first day of submitting buku rekod mengajar! 🤣 #Ciwi

Girls, 

Did you remember?

Remember when we cried over our kids' attitude but still love them anyway?

Remember how we console each other?

Remember all those memories where we "mengumpat" on our kids in the car?

Remember how quiet the car will be whenever we have observation?

Remember how all of you will shut me up from singing? 😛

Remember how we share our food?

Remember when we help each other out so that all of us will pass our observation peacefully?

Remember how your words soothe my heart without you even realised it?

Remember KER 619? 😛

Remember how random we are when we decided to go out and find food?

Remember the cendol rm3 yang sedap gils tapi murah dan banyak?

Remember how we give strength to each other whenever we need it?

Remember all of our stupid jokes?

Remember how kalut we are to prepare milo for cik Nurhakimah? 😂😂

Look at us now girls, we survived!

So, I just wanna thank to each one of you for being there when I need it. Thank you for all the laugh, jokes, advices, tips, suggestions, teaching aids, ideas, and everything. 

Sya,

Thank you for letting us 'tumpang' your car and pay such a small amount of money to support your duit minyak. Thank you for all the effort to bring us out and eat foods and went to print expert. hehe. Tak tau nak kata apa. Thank you and sorry for everything. Like, seriously. Thank you for existing in my life. May Allah bless you and ease everything for you.

 

nampak tak kependekan saya disitu. macam orang kerdil

Syasya senyum guys. Syasya senyum guys!!

Ummie,

Thank you for your understanding, ideas and many more. Thank you for always teman-ing me to eat at the canteen. Thank you and sorry if I ever hurt you. hehehehehehe. And, Thank you for existing. May Allah bless you always and ease everything for you too. 

senyum dulu. Giloo belum datang. :p

haaa tudiaa guys. tudiaaaaa

Ila, 

Thank you deskmate! thank you for all the things that you lend to me, foods, jajan, ideas and many more. We both were facing a hard time as we never know or experienced on how to handle year 1 and year 2. But, we made it ila! :p Sorry for all the jokes and all. and again, thank you for existing. May Allah bless you and ease everything for you too!

Banyak je gambar tak senonoh ( read: buruk) dengan ila ni. tapi, tak jumpa pulak.

So, to each one of you, thank you for being there, thank you for sticking to the promise to take care of each other, thank you for all the laughs, advices, jokes and all. Thank you for existing and thank you for being my friend and accepting me as who I am. Thank you for being the reason why I can survive my practicum phase 1. May Allah showers you with his blessings and give you abundant of joy in life. May HE grant you with all the happiness that the whole world could ever give so you won't be sad again. aamiin.

To conclude, :p Thank you and sorry for everything. And I really meant it. and really really do.

p/s: always remember, I will always be there to hold your hand to go through hardship and be there for you, if you need me. *hugs*

To many more days to annoy all of you! :p

Thank you for reading this entry!