Practicum 1 - Practicum - mates

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Alright. Last one! hehe. This time I wanna rant about these 3 girls. my practicum-mates, crying-mates, makan-mates, and many more! Btw, this post might be cringe. so, read at your own risk. 😜😝

Haa senyum laa dulu. satgi nangis tak tauu ehhh. 😜

We are all having tough times during our first 2-3 weeks. We were soooo frustrated, crying our heart out, sobbing, serabut and many more. But, guess what? We finished our practicum 1 already girls!!!!! how time flies

Our first day!💃🏻

Our last day 😢

Remember my first instastory on our first day of school? I asked all of you to promise to take care of each other right? and I can say that all of us did a great job! 🤪🤪

Remember our first day when we were all soo nervous as we don't know what to expect with this school? remember the pak guard when we tried to search for the parking spot? "Yang pagar tulis penceroboh akan didakwa tu ke pak cik?" I swear we laughed like orang gila sebab benda tu je. hahahaha.

We are all not ready for our practicum phase 1 as all of us were still blur and did not know what to expect. Lagi-lagi bila lecturer sendiri pun tak de time tu. I still remember how blur we are and ntah. Semua macam tak de mood at first sebab semua tak ready. We were not prepared to face this practicum thingy, kan? When the practicum unit said that they wanna change us to a new school, we were like "okay. maybe this school will be better?". and suddenly Puan Kasma said "okay, no need to change school." and I macam, "Wth. I have already prepared mentally and physically nak keluar dari sekolah ni." hahahahaha

our first day of submitting buku rekod mengajar! 🤣 #Ciwi

Girls, 

Did you remember?

Remember when we cried over our kids' attitude but still love them anyway?

Remember how we console each other?

Remember all those memories where we "mengumpat" on our kids in the car?

Remember how quiet the car will be whenever we have observation?

Remember how all of you will shut me up from singing? 😛

Remember how we share our food?

Remember when we help each other out so that all of us will pass our observation peacefully?

Remember how your words soothe my heart without you even realised it?

Remember KER 619? 😛

Remember how random we are when we decided to go out and find food?

Remember the cendol rm3 yang sedap gils tapi murah dan banyak?

Remember how we give strength to each other whenever we need it?

Remember all of our stupid jokes?

Remember how kalut we are to prepare milo for cik Nurhakimah? 😂😂

Look at us now girls, we survived!

So, I just wanna thank to each one of you for being there when I need it. Thank you for all the laugh, jokes, advices, tips, suggestions, teaching aids, ideas, and everything. 

Sya,

Thank you for letting us 'tumpang' your car and pay such a small amount of money to support your duit minyak. Thank you for all the effort to bring us out and eat foods and went to print expert. hehe. Tak tau nak kata apa. Thank you and sorry for everything. Like, seriously. Thank you for existing in my life. May Allah bless you and ease everything for you.

 

nampak tak kependekan saya disitu. macam orang kerdil

Syasya senyum guys. Syasya senyum guys!!

Ummie,

Thank you for your understanding, ideas and many more. Thank you for always teman-ing me to eat at the canteen. Thank you and sorry if I ever hurt you. hehehehehehe. And, Thank you for existing. May Allah bless you always and ease everything for you too. 

senyum dulu. Giloo belum datang. :p

haaa tudiaa guys. tudiaaaaa

Ila, 

Thank you deskmate! thank you for all the things that you lend to me, foods, jajan, ideas and many more. We both were facing a hard time as we never know or experienced on how to handle year 1 and year 2. But, we made it ila! :p Sorry for all the jokes and all. and again, thank you for existing. May Allah bless you and ease everything for you too!

Banyak je gambar tak senonoh ( read: buruk) dengan ila ni. tapi, tak jumpa pulak.

So, to each one of you, thank you for being there, thank you for sticking to the promise to take care of each other, thank you for all the laughs, advices, jokes and all. Thank you for existing and thank you for being my friend and accepting me as who I am. Thank you for being the reason why I can survive my practicum phase 1. May Allah showers you with his blessings and give you abundant of joy in life. May HE grant you with all the happiness that the whole world could ever give so you won't be sad again. aamiin.

To conclude, :p Thank you and sorry for everything. And I really meant it. and really really do.

p/s: always remember, I will always be there to hold your hand to go through hardship and be there for you, if you need me. *hugs*

To many more days to annoy all of you! :p

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Practicum 1 - 2 Murni edition

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Okay next! I want to nag and rant about my kids. hehe. it is almost a month I left the school. I'm happy sebab I dah habis praktikum. But, deep down in my heart, I miss them all. serious. kadang-kadang I rasa macam nak nangis teringat semua. huhuhuhu.

eeeee rindu!!

Dear my beloved annoying graceful beautiful 2 murni, :p 

(Raziq, Thaqif, Aiman, Farwiz, Moses, Fatih, Raiyan, Azim, Mustapha, Humairah, Syazween, Joleen, Nishalini, Loshini, Ellyana, Elissa, Fatin, Qaleesya, Nevetha, Umairah)

Did you know that you gave me a hard time in SK Taman Sea for the first 3 weeks?

Did you know that you are also one of the reasons why I want to give up?

Did you know that you make me cried at night thinking about what else I can do to manage all of you?

Did you know that you make me lost my voice because I have to shout at you every time I entered your class?

Did you know that you are the reason for all my headache?

Did you know that you are the reason for my asthma and migraine?

Did you know that you will always be the hot topic for us to talk in the car?

Did you know that you are the reason that I was having a tough time during my practicum?

But, noww...

Did you know that you are my first pupils, everrr?

Did you know how broke my heart when I saw all of you were crying and I have no choice other than to leave you?

Did you know how hard is it for me to broke my promise for not leaving all of you?

Did you know that you are also one of my sources of happiness?

Did you know that whenever I saw "jajan" or stationery sets, it will remind me of you?

Did you know that whenever I scroll my gallery and found your photos, I will stop for a while and smile?

Did you know that you guys are on my lock screen?

Did you know that I will randomly smile when I remembered all of your perangai?

Did you know that I can't listen to that kpop songs because it will automatically remind me of you?

Did you know that you are the reason why I am determined to be a better person just because of you?

Did you know that you guys are the reason why I give my best to teach?

Did you know that you are also one of the reasons why I refuse to give up?

Did you know that you are the reason why (like finally) I decided to be in this profession?

Did you know that my heart is missing you guys so much?

Did you know that this 'so-tough-girl' over here is screaming inside and wanting to run and hug you guys so much?

Did you know that you are the reason for who I am today?

My sayang-sayang sekalian,

I am sorry for everything. Sorry for shouting at you, sorry if I ever uttered something that hurt your feeling, sorry for making you frustrated at first, sorry for keep on scolding you just because of the smallest - littlest - thing. Sorry for not being a good teacher and sorry for leaving you. 

Thank you for all the headache, migraine and asthma because all those things are the ones that make me who am I today. Thank you for all the running, fighting, shouting as it helped me learn how to handle that kind of thing if it ever happened in my class again. Thank you for all of the words that hurt my feeling as they are the one who drive me to give you the best to love English.

Tengoklahh tu perangai masing-masing

Haaa inilah dia rakan-rakan. Inilah dia 2 Murni

So, 2 Murni sekalian,

Wherever you go, whenever you are, I will always pray the best for you. May all of your dreams come true, may God helps you and ease everything for your future, may all of you will be the best ever person in this world. aamiin.

Always remember my words. Be kind to everyone despite of their differences. Just be kind because we don't need any reason to be kind. right? So, always be kind, help people out, respect everyone and always striving for the best. Remember, I will always be there to hold your hand and push you to pass the finishing line. We might be far in distance but we will always be connected by heart. Okie?

I miss all of your hugs. I miss seeing you run towards me and hug me. I miss you.

I love you.

But, there is one more thing. I really really really want to say sorry for not keeping my promise. I promise you that I won't leave you, right? Sorry for not sticking to my promise for not leaving you guys. I am sorry. I have to. I have to leave. Sorry :'(

p/s: I love you guys so much! *sending virtual hugs to each one of you* 

Love,

Miss Iemah

Actually, we did take a lot of pictures together. But, I don't think that I can scroll all of the pictures without crying. So, untuk mengelakkan I nangis, I guna je gambar apa yang ada. huwaaaa rindu. :(

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Practicum 1 - The End

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Okay genk. dah dekat sebulan gak laa practicum fasa 1 ni habis. tapi, ni baru sempat nak update. hehe. :p I habis practicum 6 september haritu. Okayyyy, like finally!!!! habis pun!!!!!! eee rasa nak jerit!! hahaha

I still remember the day when I cried on my baba's shoulder and now, here I am. Surviving my practicum life. ehehehe. bila fikir balik, ee kenapa tah nangis time tu. ish. XD But, I do learn a lot of things throughout this journey. series. okay jom sembang. I nak buat appreciation post ni kat semuorang yang tolong I time practicum ni. ehehehehe

Okay, first! I want to thank my practicum-mates. Ila, Ummie, Syasya, Mei Mun, Jin Jing, Ivy and Faris!! my practicum will be dulled without them. sumpah! If you know me, you mesti tau how introvert I am and how quiet I am when I meet new people. But, these people are one of the people yang I boleh "click" in a short time. Untuk post ni, I focus on these 4 people je. Yang lagi 3 (ummie, ila, syasya) tu, entry lain. hehe

 

Our last makan-makan. :'(

 

Eeeeee. I rindu laa perangai gila masing-masing

 

Time makan sushi. My first time eating sushi. hehe

 

Time makan MCD. order spicy biasa. Tapi dapat 3X spicy. menangis semuaa. HAHAHAHAH

and, our first photo together. :'''')

I already miss our makan-makan activity!! huhu. Macam ni genk. every wednesday, kami ada acara "makan-makan bersama practicum-mates". :p (anywhere. cakap je nak gi mana). We already went to Taman medan, Seoul Garden, Murni Discovery, Sushi Mentai, Nasi Ayam Hainan , etc. Lepas je habis koko, masing-masing berebut kemas nak gi makan. kebulur. hahahahah. eee. 

I dah rindu nak dengar ivy jerit, rindu nak tengok muka berlagak Jin Jing, gelak Mei Mun, lawak hambar (like seriously hambar) Faris. Eeee rindunya nak sakat semuorang.  woof woof

So, to each one of you, thank you for existing, thank you for all the advices, jokes, gossips, foods and all. Thank you. Sorry if I ever hurt your feeling with all those jokes (yang kita je faham :p) or anything. Sorry okay? it is just..... THANK YOU for existing and the memories. <3 like seriously, Thank you. *sending virtual hug*

Okay, next sebelum I nangis, :p. I also want to thank my mentor, madam Meena and my ketua panitia, Madam Yeo.

This is madam Meena. Ni laa cooperating teacher Ila dengan I.

 

Okay. This one is Madam Yeo. Actually, we already took pictures with madam Yeo. But, we were using her phone. Pastu, masing-masing lupa nak minta gambarnya. huhu

So, whatever it is, Thank you for all the tunjuk ajar, advices, tips, scolding (:p), teaching aids, memories and foods. Haha. Sampai habis biskut madam yeo syasya makan. :p Seriously, without both of you, we cannot survived our practicum. we gained a lot of things and we learnt a lot of things from both of you. Thank you. 

And, sorry for all of our rudeness (if there is any), our attitude or anything. Sorry if we ever hurt you and your feeling. We are so so so soooo sorry. Thank you for everything.

Next, I would also like to thank you to all the teachers in Sk Taman Sea. They are really really really helpful. T_______T. friendly and many more. they helped us a lot and I swear, without them, we cannot survived our practicum too! 

Puan Junaidah, our PK Pentadbiran

Puan Suwarni, our former headmistress and Cikgu Chun

Cikgu Fasihah!

Cikgu Haniza. sumpah, banyak gila membawang dengan cikgu Haniza ni. agaknya, kalau cikgu Haniza takde, kami mesti kesunyian. HAHAHAHAHAH

imagine ehh, kalau you guys gi sekolah yang cikgu-cikgu dia selfish and banyak complain pasal korang. It will be disaster. serious!. Tapi, alhamdulillah. cikgu-cikgu ni semua sangat helpful and willing to help you in evry way. pastu, selalu dapat makanan pulak tu. gemuk laa masing-masing. hahahahah. Thank you cikgu-cikgu and sorry if we have ever hurt you. tersalah cakap ke, terjeling ke , tak buat keje ke. huhuhuhu. apa-apa pun. THANK YOU SO MUCH. SERIOUSLY, THANK YOU. <3

Okay, next entry will be about my beloved kids! stay tuned. :p

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Be Grateful

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     So, today (20 September 2019), I teman ila pergi PPUM. because she had a back pain that restricted her movement. Sebenarnya dah sebulan lebih dah. Dah puas push pergi hospital, tapi duk tangguh. last-last, harini gak baru pergi. Alhamdulillah, bukan slip disc just muscle sprain je. 

                                                               

     So, hospital is one of the places yang I memang tak suka pergi. Macam biasa la, bila dah sampai hospital ni, macam-macam laa yang kita nampak kannn. Seeing all of these kind of scenes make me realised how ungrateful I am. Going to hospital will never be in my list because I hate all those smell (and doctors too. lagi-lagi dr gigi 😛). I hate to see people in pain and I can do nothing about it. If I could trade my health with them, I'll probably do it. Especially my loved ones.

     Seeing people without their hand(s), people without their legs, people with a big hole on their toe, people whose hands keep on shivering, people with their tumit with full of 'nanah', kids with their mouth full with kudis and all, a mak cik who coughing non stop, a pak cik who sits on a wheelchair and stares at people emphatically, a pregnant woman, a very thin girl who constantly need to take medicine to live longer, a nenek who needs a tongkat to walk without her children to help, a boy who gets a lot of injections' bruises, a pak cik who walks weirdly because one of his foot is bigger than the other, a little baby who is fully depending on the oxygen machine because she cannot breathes normally and many more.

     All this while, I always thought that Allah gives me the hardest ujian on top of the other people. Complains, sigh, frustrated, moodiness and many more have filled my daily life. Sikit2, mengeluh. "Why are you testing me like this?" "Why are you giving me this pain?" And so many whyy questions coming up without questioning on 'what'. Never asked, 'what is Allah trying to show me?' 'What is it that HE wants me to learn?'

     Padahal, what happened in our life is something that we asked for. I asked Allah, everyday. "Ya Allah, please forgive me, please forgive all of my parents, siblings, family, teachers and my loved ones' sins. Please forgive my sins also. And make this heart beats only for you." Butttt, when HE gives us pain, sikitttt je. I dah mengeluh. Why are you putting me in this situation? Padahal awal2 dah minta kat tuhan suruh hapus dosa. Bila sakit, macam2 pulak. Sedangkan sakit tu kan penghapus dosa?

So, I told myself, "In whatever situation HE puts you in, in how hard situation that you are in now, that is the BEST for you. HE knows everything and we know nothing as HE is the all knowing. Always believe in HIM and always bersangka baik dengan DIA. We plan, HE plans but HIS plan will always be the best."

I have learned that, in this life, if we are at our lowest, always remember that there are so many many many people out there who are going through something harder than us. There are so many many many people out there who want to be in your shoes now. Who wants to be YOU. And, if we are feeling that we are on the top, always remember that there is one up there who is more powerful than us. We are actually nothing without his Ihsan. Be grateful. Oki?

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Practicum 1 - part 2

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Ok genk, today is 24th of august 2019. and guess what? tinggal 2 minggu je lagi nak habis practicum. huwaaaaaaaa!

My practicum started with a few issues (personal one) but slowly it develops me into who am I now. mula2 dulu, menyampah teruk tengok budak2 ni. memekakkk je dalam kelas. rasa nak pukul je, tapi, tak boleh. hahahaha. after a few weeks taking their class, I started to love them. I started to love and put all of my efforts to teach them. One of the cooperating teachers, she always advises us. one of my fav, "don't forget that they are still kids."

It is damn true. they are year 2 pupils and you expect them to sit still and listen to your voice for 1 hour. memang tak ahhh. hahahah. so, i changed my method, I do a lot of fun learning activities and mostly inspired by teacher fiera and teacher dilla. :p

I still remember the day when i cried like a baby (i'm still a baby tho. my parent's baby :p) when baba came to see me. At that time, i just had my first observation with my cooperating teacher and i was damn bad. my classroom management hancur, i was really really like a robot and everything was chaos. I was at my lowest point that day. I have tried to talk to few people but, they ignored me. lagilahh i down. hahahahah. Then, around 6 or 7 p.m, baba datang. he came to give me a few things and food. hehe. I have tried my best not to cry in front of him, but I can't. hahaha

time peluk baba tu, terus laju je turun air mata. baba pun terkejut. cik lan pun terkejut. yang budak 2 ekor dalam kereta tu, gelakkan aku. hahaha. At that time, I learnt that, the one who will always there is family. the one who will accept all of my flaws, my insecurity and my weirdness, is them. so, baba told me, "anak baba kan kuat. everything happens with a reason. semua yang jadi ni ada hikmah. imah kena kuat laa." Lagi laju laa air mata I turun. but, somehow it soothes my heart a little bit. hehe

And fast forward to today. when I looked back to that day. compared with who am I today, I believe that I have improved a lottttt. from the "cengeng" one to "kental" one. :p 

I jadi lebih open, calm, redha with everything. I accept je everything yang Allah bagi. I just follow the flow. if something bas happens, I told my self, "It is okay. This is what you learnt. this is your part. semua orang ada bahagian masing-masing. what you have to do is just accept and improve yourself. don't underestimate Allah's plan. He is planning something better for you. so, chin up and do it again. Afterall, it is just a bad day and not a bad life."

Betul laa kalau kite redha, kita terima, tenang jee hati ni. hehe. another 2 weeks to go!! pray for me. In shaa Allah. May Allah ease everything for us. aamiin. hehe

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Practicum 1 - part 1

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Alright. so, i have started my practicum phase 1 on 11th of june. and i have no idea about it. hahahaha. padahal, harini dah hari ke-3. so, there are few issues happen.

ok, first. i dont know why, but i have a bad feelings when i entered this school. eh, no. even before practicum started. hahahahah. dia macam mana ek, bukan bad feelings. sebenarnya i serabut. tu jee. i think a lot. no, i overthink. huhuhu. i think, this kind of thing happens because i am not ready for practicum. so, i pray a lot to Allah. sebab i sampai tak boleh tido since i jejak ipba. u know, we need a lot of energy during practicum (to shout :p)

i dont know. i berat hati jee kat sekolah ni. i don't know why i am very reluctant to stay at this school. sumpah, sekolah ni okay, cikgu-cikgu dia sangat welcoming, baik, helpful. budak2 pun okay. but, I still dont know why this kind of feeling even exist. maybe because I am not ready. sebab semua benda macam tiba2. sumpah, semua datang serentak and you have to all of it at once.

actually, kami tak cukup waktu mengajar. we supposed to have 10 periods per week, but we only got 7 periods. and after negotiation, the GB agreed to give us 9 periods to teach. but, still tak cukup. so, we met unit prakticum and discuss about it. they said that we are going to change school to SK Petaling 2. at that time, i feel like macam beban kat bahu tu hilangh. i tak tau kenapa. series. i feel like, ok, this new school it might be okay for me. i macam boleh serasi dengan sekolah baru ni. in shaa Allah. buttttt, today, we just got the news that we are going to stay at this school. ipgm bagi pelepasan sebab ni kes khas. so, yeah. masa dapat tau tu, i macam "wth. i dah mentally and physically prepared nak keluar dari sekolah ni." hahahahah

i tiba2 serabut balik. then, i teringat my parent's advice, "istighfar, selawat banyak2, mintak dipermudahkan semua." i serabut gila without any reason. i ws my mom and my dad, minta diorang doakan i. mintak hilangkan semua benda2 negative ni. and, Allah helps me T_______T

masa i dapat berita kena stay kat sekolah ni, i tengah relief kelas darjah 1. i dengan ummie serabut sangat, so, kami paksa depa tido sebab tamau laa nanti duk lepas geram kat depa tiba2. hahahha. setengah jam jugak laa diorang tido. XD and, after that, i teman ummie relief kelas darjah 3. time, tu, kami marah depa sebab diorang masuk kelas lambat. duk pi kat kedai buku beli apa dia tah. memang kena laa kann. and after that, i masuk kelas darjah 2. class yang akan i handle for this 3 months. time tu, sumpah serabut. but, Allah nak tunjuk. when i entered that class, they were so excited. "Cikgu imah! Cikgu Imah!" i macam, "awwww.."

time tu, ada syasya relief kelas tu. so, saja laa masuk. dahtu, syasya ajak main game yes or no. game ni, kalau jawapan diorang yes, they have to run at the front of the class, and if their answer is no, they have to go to the back of the classroom. bila syasya tanya, "Do you love miss iemah?" and they are all running towards me and hug me. i macam "awww...ya Allah. apa dosa budak2 ni." i macam reflect balik, "why i want to change school when i already have these bunch of cute (Nakal gila) kids. dah laa cikgu diorang duk tinggai depa berapa bulan dahh. takkan i nak jadi macam cikgu tu." at that time, i realised yang, i have been selfish for the past three days. and now, i feel all of the unnecessary burden yang i duk overthink tu, it is not supposed to be there. i have to love the kids and teaching. because, afterall, i am a TEACHER. 

Terima kasih Allah for lessen my burden, for get rid all of these negative vibes. and tahnk you for still giving me opportunity to fix my mistake. :')

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